Connecting to the Belonging

“You cannot find peace by avoiding life, Leonard.”

Michael Cunningham, The Hours

But what if I love where I am and I find I don’t belong there? Catastrophic sudden panic of imminent death. Will is strong, and I don’t want to die. Surely I can not risk intimacy with my place. Survival will only happen if I act in place, yet dream of another. That will be ok, right? No? Oh fuck….

I kept walking. I walked through the ghosts, the stuffed, the imported, the stolen, the collected, the hoarded, the valued, the devalued. We laughed. We connected. We poked and pulled and wondered. He cooked and talked. We drank and opinionated. The most brilliant minds of K’town came together in this one moment that saved my life today.

“Everyday is exciting” ~ Steve.

“Dont make me famous I want it to stay local” ~ Ra

“It’s a big step. But a good step” ~ Eliza

I stared into the headlights of life. I am paralysed.

"Depression is emotional quicksand. Once we get stuck, it's hard to pull free. Our struggles exhaust us and depress us further. It is easier to avoid depression than overcome it, and yes, we avoid it by taking risks. If we remember that we need to court, woo and romance our creative selves, we begin to have a notion of what sort of risk best serves us."

Julia Cameron - Walking In This World.